I just got finished from a work out session in the basement. It lasted about 25 minutes, and is the first time I have worked out in about 18 years. I know what you are thinking, “Nic, how do you maintain that fantastic physique without ever working out?” and the answer is, diet and exercise. You see, I have a balanced diet, and also play sports…
No, I’m just kidding. I’m about as skinny and weak as a grade 3 school girl. After playing goalie in soccer, and finishing the game sweaty and out of breath, and playing a hockey game, pretty much dead after 5 minutes on the ice, I realized that I need to get in some kind of shape, especially if I am going to get married in the next couple years. Again, just kidding.

If you wanted to know, I worked my core, as well as my biceps and triceps. This may sound extreme, but I assure you, it would’ve been sad to watch.

I feel like throwing up.

So, here it is. This was one of those things I kept kind of a secret, for the sole purpose of simplicity. I didn’t want to tell a bunch of people if it wasn’t going to happen for sure, but it’s too late now. I told too many people, and now everyone knows. Well, not really, but still.

If everything works out, and everything gets done, I will be moving to Aizawl in India in January 2007 for 5 or 6 months.

That’s the plan anyways. We’re still working on flights, passports, visas, and all that stuff.
Hopefully everything works out, if not, I devote my semester in Canada to sleeping in and doing push-ups.

thats all.

Sheldon Souray Goal

this is the goal i was talking about. the shootout winner.
This one is for tim..
but mostly for me. i just wanted to watch the goal a million more times.

sheldon souray, i will never understand the man.

Tonight was a beautiful night. There is not much better than a Saturday night, at home, with a Coca-Cola in hand, watching the Montreal Canadiens play the Toronto Maples Leafs. One of the oldest rivalries in sports, and the greatest in the hockey world. It was a fast paced game that had to be put away in the shootout.

Sheldon Souray, yeah, Sheldon Souray was the third shooter for Montreal, and he made no mistake. It was one of the nicest penalty shots I have ever seen, and that is no lie. Watch Sportscentre tonight. He was once voted the Sexiest NHL Player of the Year, and to back that up, he scores goals, lays huge hits, and he is one of the toughest fighters out there. He is a fantastic dude.

Then there is Koivu. He owned this game. Two goals to tie it up, as well as a shoot out goal. No one in the league has more heart than this guy. Amazing, is all I can think of.

Anyways, after tonights game, Montreal’s huge come from behind win, I felt pretty good. And these guys were the reason. Souray’s grit and strength, Koivu’s heart and determination. This is why I love this team.

Stanley Cup in ’07!

While driving home on the ice in the coldest Korean car ever, I found an old fortune cookie fortune. I don’t really know how fortunes work, if they can only come true once for the first person who reads it, or if it will come true for whoever reads it until the end of time, but i don’t care.. i think they are awesome.. the fortune said this,

‘You shouldn’t overspend at the moment. Frugality is important.’

Being the true fan of English class (i hate it) I thought I would take this and dig deep, utilizing what I have learned in English100. First things first, I don’t have a clue what frugality means, so a dictionary will be necessary..

The Dictionary points out the root word. Ohhh, frugal. I should’ve looked for the root word. But I still don’t know what it means. I found the definition for frugality. it is:
Frugality: prudence in avoiding waste

I hate it when dictionaries have another word you don’t understand, in the definition of a word you dont understand. So,
Prudence: caution with regard to practical matters; discretion.

So, in summary, through substitution, we have:
Frugality is the caution with regard to practical matters (discretion) in avoiding waste.

Now that I have a very weak understanding of frugality, I need to understand the rest of the fortune, ‘You shouldn’t overspend at the moment’. Is this one of those, killing the joke, kind of things? Or, when you are having the best day of your life, don’t say that it is the best day of your life, because when you look back on that supposed best day of your life, it won’t seem like the best day of your life, because you said that.

So, since I’m much too lazy, and incompetent (spelling?) in the English language, thats all. We figured it out together.

I am going to shovel some snow.

this topic may be getting tired, but it’s where i am lately, so here we are again.

in 3 weeks, what will i be doing? in 3 months, in a year, in three years?

some ideas and opportunities have come up, different than the ones before. real ideas, not just wishes and ramblings.

1. australia – for no good reason other than that it is australia.. it is very unlikely, but possible. kurtis, me, some australian beach babes. what could be better? it would be nice, but the only way for that to happen, as well as anything cool to happen to me, is to get some money, and fast.
this idea then ties in with the idea, created by not me, to move to yellowknife and get a job, and make money for a good old australian trip. what do you think?

2. china. this idea was just presented to me very lately, but i never really thought about it before.. if they’d take me, i could go to that land of asian beauties and teach some english, or, according to harmony, a minibus driver.. the latter seems less likely, but both are intriguing and interesting to me… more thought on those ones.

3. regina. good old, reliable regina.. stick around here for school or job. it would be great. friends, family, familiarity. but, right now, school seems out of the picture. not sure why, but it just does.

those are more ideas.. all, probably not very likely, but options.. seems like i want to get out of town, but its not true. i bet every teenager has this right out of highschool. the immature, naive wish to leave the country and go on an unlikely adventure.
but, i may as well do it while i’m still young.

i’m tired of not knowing what to do, someone make a decision for me.. next comment on this blog, i vow to do whatever it is you say with my life, and this upcoming year.

go!

haha. that title.. it is saying news. thats all.

anyway, i figured i’d change it up a bit. for no good reason, other than to change it up a bit.
i wrote my chemistry102 laboratory final today. it was a breeze.. not a really warm and inviting breeze on a cold day, but a nice cool breeze on a hot day..
which one is more refreshing?

you be the judge.

this topic makes me feel good and bad, at the same time.

this weekend, old friend Tyler Butel is in town.. he is sleeping in my basement as we speak. he’s here for 2 more days, playing some hockey, eating some food, hopefully shooting off some fireworks. seeing him last night for the first time in 3 months was a good thing. before that three months, it was a long time though.. him in oklahoma, me in regina, i see him less than i did when he lived in oman, which is a heck of a lot further away then oklahoma, or calgary. but seeing him, brought up a certain feeling, one that i cannot really describe. when you see someone you haven’t seen in a long time, it feels right.

i miss quite a few people, and sometimes thinking about it even sucks. i miss my friend seong bin lee. i spent every day of grade 12 with this guy, eating lunch, every class together, driving around. saying goodbye to him was the hardest goodbye i’ve ever said to anyone.. probably because i wasn’t sure if i would ever see him again.. he is now in ontario, going to school to be a billionaire, because he’s a genius. i miss him the most.

saying goodbye to bin was not fun. i didn’t enjoy it.. i am a firm believer in saying goodbyes, even if you will see that person in 19 minutes.. if you won’t see the person for much longer, a goodbye is very necessary, or else, you leave it all up in the air, and it doesn’t feel complete.

i miss lots of other people too. but with him, there was that chance i’d never see him again, that makes it much more real.. i miss eric g, face and kurtis, just to name a few, but i am fairly sure that i will see them again. i hope so anyways.

well, this being said, to all those people i haven’t seen in more than a month, i miss you. everyone else, wait a month, and i might care about you.. we’ll see.

oops i did it again. i played with your heart, and got lost in this game. oh baby, baby.
…. i’m not that innocent.

oh, brittany spears, you can cut to the core of me.. you sure can. with your white trash ex-husband, and your kids you can’t even take care of, and your awful music that created a whole new level of awful when you were wearing only jewels and singing about being toxic.

anyway, i did it again. no big surprise. i do it once every couple years, if i’m lucky.. always has to do with girls, getting mad at me, for good reason. last time was in grade 10, on the bus on the way home, i said something, one of her friends ‘overheard’ told her, and the next morning i was welcomed with about 6 girls with angry faces, arms on their hips, tapping their foot. that kind of angry.. we did a lap around the hallway, she told me what i did, i told her i was sorry, and that was about it.

but, even though it happens once every couple years, i don’t learn. ever. i still do it, even in my mature university persona, i am no better off than i was in grade 10. i was such a loser in grade 10, bad hair, and clothes. sweet friends though..

anyways, the reason i am not saying what i did, or to whom, is because that might send this into an entirely new kind of spiral i am not used to, and that would be bad. just like they say, one spiral is often enough.. just like advil.

i bet this makes no sense. basically this:

nic + people = bad things

sorry everyone.

since i haven’t done it in a while, and tim is my role model, here is the gridblurb.
i’m not entirely sure what it is about, because i barely understand English, but the idea of ‘living in the light of death’ was something i found interesting..

death is something i am far from understanding. i just don’t get it somehow. how when people die, they don’t wake up. how, apparently, they still ‘live’ but not on this earth. being the shallow teenager i am, it’s still hard to understand that there is anything beyond this earth that you could live in.. and this brings in my lack of knowledge of heaven and all that. is it like scooby doo the movie where all your souls are in a large cauldron?
but, for some reason i think about this a lot: i think about me dieing, or my friends dieing, or my family dieing.. i think about what the funeral would be like if i died, or if one of my friends died. i think about how many people would show up, if i would be one of the highest on the grieving chart. all i know is, no matter who died, i would have no clue how to handle it. i am not emotionally equipped for that kind of stuff. i would probably just not leave my room for a month. somehow that would solve it all. i’m not even emotionally equipped to deal with girls that cry for no reason, i couldn’t handle people crying for a legitimate reason.

i am not comfortable with death. maybe because i’m not comfortable with life. maybe because i don’t understand anything about either life or death. what i do know is that death will get me. it will sneak up on me like a surprise shot to the groin, not something i really wish for myself, but is inevitable.. all i can do, is hope that my days before that shot to the groin are filled with some sort of purpose, whether it is making other people happy, or sitting here, writing stupid blogs.